My latest Blogger Bingo Post….
Task: Do a post on what you wanted to be when you grew up and what you actually are now!
Growing up I think I changed what I wanted to be on regular basis. I don’t remember there ever being a constant thing. The one thing I knew was I DID NOT want to be a teacher! Both my parents were teachers and that was a HARD job!
The first thing I can remember wanting to be was an astronaut. I was in Kindergarten when the spaceship Challenger blew up with teacher, Christa McAuliffe. At that age I didn’t understand there were multiple teachers – I only knew mine and that a teacher blew up in space. I was devastated and my parents had to explain the situation to me. Somehow during that experience, I decided that I wanted to go into space, I wanted to be an astronaut. This was probably the one career dream that I hung onto the longest. It wasn’t constant; it would come and go, but it lasted through about 4th grade or so I think.
After that I really don’t remember knowing what I wanted to be for a long time. There were brief thoughts of being a lawyer, a website designer, a banker, a college professor, and a business owner. All of these were fleeting thoughts though – never lasting more than a month or two. To be honest, even when I got to college I didn’t know what I wanted to do with my life. I somehow stumble into a couple business classes, and I felt at home. Business was soon declared my major, and I finally started enjoying college. Before that it had just been “more school.” I still didn’t quite know what my role in the business world would be, but I was looking forward to discovering my place.
Then I was close to finishing. I had lined up those last few semesters – knew what I needed to take, and then two things happened. I started working with the debaters at my old high school, and I got pregnant. Somehow those two things came together, and I realized I had written off “my calling” years ago. I realized I LOVED working with those high school debaters. I actually looked forward to those very early Saturday mornings that I would get up and go spend the day with them at tournaments. As I was coming to this life altering realization (but still fighting it), I realized I was having a baby. This brought forth a lot of soul searching and one of them was about my future career. I realized that I did not want to be a part of that business world I had dreamed of just a year before. I did not want to go live in a city (which would almost be necessary to gain any kind of job or amount of successfulness with a business degree) and I did not want to work 60, 70, 80 hours a week. I think even then I knew I would ultimately be raising this baby on my own, and I wanted to be home and a part of her life. Then I started really thinking about how much I enjoyed my time with those students, how if I was a teacher I’d have the same school vacations as this baby, and I went in to find out what I needed to do to change my major.
But I was too far along. Changing my major was going to take another year of school. I was about to have a baby. I needed to graduate – not stay in school even longer. So I investigated and found out how to become a teacher after I had my degree. I could start teaching and take my education classes at the same time. It worked, and I’ve now been teaching for 9 years. I’m so thankful for my daughter for so many reasons, but I do think that one of the reasons she was given to me was to lead me to the right career. I know the pay isn’t the best….the salary from that business career would make raising two girls on my own easier, but I know that I’m where I need to be. I love my job. I love my students. I love the connections I make. I love that I know I make a positive change in our future. The one thing I always knew I didn’t want to be is the one thing I love.
